Monday, 29 March 2010

New Beginnings

Mandy and Tony's wedding was beautiful. They were married at Shakespeare's Point. The vows they spoke were profound, moving and real. I wept and wept, for happiness and for sadness. I felt joyful to see my friends so happy. And I felt so overwhelmingly sad for the love that I have lost.

I have not been coping well with the avalanche of grief that I am experiencing. For Gabby's death, for my cancer and for Nick's cold indifference. I cry too much. I shake too often. I am going away for three weeks to a 'retreat' for some emotional, spiritual and physical healing.

I will be back on the 20th of April.

Goodbye, for now.

Lily x


Ruth Howard said...

Ok Lily I wish you peace, deep peace especially the kind that passeth understanding.

lots of love

Anonymous said...

god god god why have i been diagnosed with breast cancer again this time in the other breast shortly after having overcome the effects of radiotherapy. x